the thing i hate most about break ups: the way it leaves me with zero level of self-confidence, thank you.
i've ended my previous relationship for more than a month now, and i cant help but notice a similar pattern of thinking that i tend to have. now, i feel good going out with friends, but i cant help but feel OVER self-conscious around them. deciding on my outfit is hell for me. i feel fat all the time. i feel ugly, and when i open my closet which is full of garments, i still end up being depressed about having nothing to wear. yesss, my wardrobe needs to be updated now. but that will leave me being broke. i already am anyway. so please, money. can u start growing on trees now?
i used to not care so much about how my hair looked like, my body, my skin, the way i speak, EVERYTHING. i used to just 'go with the flow', so they say. but now, I AM OBSESSED with my looks. i just wanna look prettier. is that wrong? just so that i could feel good about myself once again. i dont wanna look in the mirror and feel like a total shit. (ouh yeah, i feel that way now.)
so friends, i need help. maybe u can suggest wht i should do with my hair to begin with. and NO. i dont wanna cut it short, i'll look like a FAT PIG having a mini wig then. well, u know wht i mean. ;)