Friday, December 31, 2010

The Mighty and Glorious 2010

Finally getting to the final chapter of 2010, the last remaining day, the 31st. It is only appropriate for me to just reminisce, have a laugh and let go of my 2010.

Beautiful 2010, here it goes:

JANUARY,
1. Second sem of MUFY started, and I hated the new timetable.
2. Being poor for 3 weeks before scholar money was settled.
3. Thought was in love with Mr. S. ;P

FEBRUARY,
1. Spent Vday at home, with family.
2. Had a crush on one of classmates, ;D
3. Had a trip to Penang, fall in and out of love there. LOL. Awesome trip as I remembered. :)

MARCH,
1. Uneventful.
2. Still mending my broken heart.

APRIL,
1. Self quoted "Good men are extinct" haha
2. Wrote something nasty about an ex and deleted it, that post was funny and I almost forgot it since I deleted it. I shall remind myself here with these keyword: Car makeout, drunk, barf?
3. Had poxes, first time ever!

MAY,
1. Started a friendship all wrong, its all in a tangle, even now.
2. Had hurt the bestest cousin ever, and got hurt by her too.
3. Best friend loses his dad. ;(
4. Finished MUFY.

JUNE,
1. Confused lust with love, being so childish. -.-
2. Gotten into huge amount of debt, and trouble.

JULY,
1. Started Uni life.
2. Graduation night was awesome, though not all perfect. ;)

AUGUST,
1. Went camping, donate blood for the first time.
2. Working days started. hahahaa.

SEPTEMBER,
1. Confused lust with love YET AGAIN, which explained the 2 weeks bf.
2. Awesome birthday!
3. Ended a friendship, thinking that it'll never work.

OCTOBER,
1. Letting go of someone truly loved.
2. Friendship with girlfriends tested.

NOVEMBER,
1. Plagiarizing got me punished, and I learnt my lesson. :)
2. Got my long time wish, my baby! ;D

DECEMBER,
1. A friend tried hooking me up, and its not working for me.
2. Current state: Depressingly fat. :(

Here are some random pictures of 2010 which I dug out from my photo album.


MUFY days, all the happy times with my babehhhh.

Close friends then and now, :)

Last days in MUFY.

Leopard print day? :)

All in all, I am thankful for a lot of things in 2010. Great friends, warm family and awesome experiences! I wouldn't change it for the world. :)

Thank you to Mimi, Apek and Adeeb for the constant support through the year. I love you guys a lot, and I hope we all remain close for years to come. :))

This is the end of 2010, people! I hope for the best things for 2011.

Happy New Year, Earthlings!
love, your favourite bitch,xox.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

All I want for Xmas

So now its Christmas already. Good news, I am still in Melaka. Happily living my life as a good sister and daughter to the loving family of mine. Lets see, what did i do today? Nothing much. You know what, today my dad came back home to cook. Surprising. Hahaha. I figured he finally realize that his daughters are not advancing in any way, on their cooking skills. Thank God for a wonderful meal today! ;) My dad is definitely the best cook ever! hehehe

I must tell you guys this. A few days ago, I had sort of a mini reunion with my fellow IJC-ians. Nilda was there, which was awesome since I didn't get to see her much. Too bad Zana couldn't come, and so it wasn't a perfect reunion. All right. Pictures ayy? These are among the oldest friends I have. Honestly I'm not that close to all of them except forNilda. Most of them are my ex-classmates. ;)


The reunion ended lateee. We had so much fun, gigling and all. At Oldtown's


A few of us, at the end of the day. ;)


Photo session at the field.


My sayanggg, Nilda. Till we meet again, babe.


And of course,yours truly, xox. haha.

Finally, 6 more days before 2011. I'm nervous and excited at the same time. But shall I be spending new year here, or in Subang? I honestly don't know.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

My British guy



Well, here's the thing. I happen to like guys with accent. I find it very sexy indeed. There was even a guy from my English class in Sunway whom I used to like awhile back as he's charming, and you know, because of his accent. Funny thing if I remembered correctly. We texted a lot, and went on a date once. I really really like this guy, but then he's only up for a fling, which is not my thing since I'm ready to settle down. Besides, when I think more of it, it might be better to just remain being friends since he's going back to Qatar right after finishing MUFY. And long distance relationship is not what I'm looking for. So, too bad.

It turned out that Apek's friend who's also from Qatar, Sayid, is a friend of my British guy, Gung. What a small world, indeed! Me and Sayid were talking and the topic of his country came up, and I told him I had a friend from Qatar, then he asked who, and the next thing I know is that they were in the same school. Lol.

I kinda had a crush on Gung first day of my English class last sem. Which was in January, and only did get to know him in June or July? Last contacted him in November, and nothing after that. Things didn't work out for us apparently. :)

There. A small recap of my 2010, and more of it maybe in the next post. :))

I don't know why all of a sudden I thought of writing about Gung. Kinda miss him, I guess. And I never really mentioned anything about him in this blog. I just mentioned in a post in January that I liked another man with the initial S. Well, its Shulhan Agung, my Brit guy. haha.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Tan skin look for winter

This 'winter' season in Malaysia, I'm going with a new look. Tan anyone?

Nahh. That's not it. Actually today my family and I(of course minus my dad and bro) went to have some family time at a water theme park here. As the obvious result, my skin is tan and my cheeks are red. I got burns, and it wasn't even a sunny day! I'm thankful for that, coz if not, my skin could've been worse.

So, the outing was fun. :D Staying at home to spend time with my sibs is the right call afterall. It wouldn't be as fun if I wasn't here I'm sure. :) heee.

My tan skin should look like this now.

Haha. Know her? Shayne Lamas, the winner for The Bachelor Season 12. Omg, I adore herrrrr! I am actually seriously considering having blonde hair now. Okay, joking. She's like me in a way, sometimes tough, sometimes very 'manja'. See, I forget my vocab for awhile. -.-'

Moving on, these days I've been thinking a lot you know. This is as a result of total boredom I'm pretty sure of that. I thought about my 2010 and how its about to end, what I've done, my mistakes, I mean everything. It pisses me off that, I've done so many things that I sworn I'd never do. I am so disappointed in myself academically, emotionally, in terms of relationships too. Be it with parents, siblings or friends, I find myself looking back and wishing that I could do everything differently. But I guess its all in the past now, right? I shall be writing a post about 2010 soon, as 2011 is drawing near. Another full year, leaving me just like that. -.-

Anyway, here's a thought. I might be going back to Subang afterall, if and only if I didn't get a job here. Time is running out, and I really wanna go spend some quality girlfriend time! I needed that, as a good start to kickoff 2011. ;)

Monday, December 06, 2010

Royal Romance

How to say "screw you" in French? Well, its all the same to me. Boredom strikes. And I am questioning whether staying at home is the right call after all. I'm shoving food in my mouth constantly, and being a nanny at home isn't the best job in the world. Especially when you have two lil bastards running around making your life miserable. I am very aware that I need a job, but I'm too used to my current routine of not the slightest thing to worry in the world.

Besides, I hate being the newbie. And I've had enough of my newbie moments. Heh.

Well, now let's talk about other things.

How about royalty? I mean, THE royals. :)

What more can I say? This two are amazing! Eight years of courtship? Wow. I am impressed. They look so good together, Kate Middleton and Prince William. I bet Mimi and Meon are gonna reach eight years long when they get married. :)

Saturday, December 04, 2010

Hello December. :)

What, its December already?? Phewww. So many unachievable targets I tell you. Anyway, I got a job a couple of days ago at a 7E here. It was effing tiring with a damn low salary. Even working in Topshop is not this tiring! So, after working for just a day, I ditched it. I didn't show up to work for two days already, I hope they get the meaning. :)

I am also stupid enough not to return to Subang to continue working in Topshop. Maybe I am awfully happy sgtaying at home. As a result, my manager, Jenny is upset with me. Well, I can't blame her since she had already arranged my schedule and all. Currently, I am jobless, about to run out of money, and miserably fat.

Ouh, and my finals result came out a couple of days ago. I cant tell you one thing. IT SUCKS. Big time. Although I passed all, but I hated putting my standard on passing only. Damn, I wonder if working on the weekends had any part in ruining my results. I seriously doubt it. I haven't been studying enough. That I assure you. Do I have regrets? Certainly. But there's no use crying over spilled milk. I gotta concentrate on next sem, if I ever plan on continuing my sponsorship. -.-

All in all, my eyes is set on one thing. To raise enough money for my Singapore trip. After all, I already have my passport.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Drive me crazy

Since when am I the one who procrastinate? That is so not my middle name. Still, having no job, and no passport currently proves that. -.-

Well, obviously I haven't been job scouting properly. And I can't seem to wake up early enough to just do my passport. The form has already been filled, I am just lazy to go there and wait, and wait and waittt. Ughh, and I've decided recently that I'm gonna be driving more this holiday.

Problem is, I forgot how to drive. hehe. I mean, the last time I set foot on the gas pedal was what, 6 months ago? So, this will be quite challenging.

Why is it so easy for my friends to drive? I cant seem to get a good grip on the whole driving thingy. Even my mum dont trust me with my driving skills. Blergghhh. Apek's not here, nor my dad to guide me with driving and all. I guess I'll have to count on myself this time.

One step at a time, it all take practice. Or so they say. HA HA

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Wigga wigs.

Earthlings, these couple of days I've been having trouble sleeping. Like seriously the imsoniatic kinda thing. Err, digging a lil deeper as to the reason why I'm behaving that way, I can finally sum it up into one thing. I need a man. Not the best friend man, or a man for a fling. I mean, like really a man to be in a relationship with. You know when all this time I've been saying life's perfectly awesome without a man by my side? I wasn't lying. It was perfect as it is. Its just that I'm in a phase where FINALLY I'm ready beyond doubt that I should start dating again.

Well, obviously by saying that, I don't mean to just jump and grab anything in front of me! I've had quite some time goofing around on meaningless dates with guys I'm not really into, and I'm over it. I guess its time for me to be serious when it comes to men. :) Shakhina Ahmad is finally back in the game guys! Good news, yeah good news.

See, when I'm all ready like this, there's only ONE problem. The man himself. I'm kinda picky as Mimi puts it. There's no harm in that, you think? I'll just go with this strategy this time, just 3 criteria:
1. He got approved by me.
2. He got approved by my sisters.
3. He got approved by my closest friends.

Shouldn't be that hard, I think. If he can pass number 1 that is. ;P

On an unrelated matter, I notice that I actually like to take pictures with WEIRD wigs on. I suppose its funny, or rather amusing. I shall be doing a lot of this from now. haha.

Afro looks good on me ay? So selekeh that day, with my oversized Monash tee. lol.


Hahaha. I might've fantasized having blue hair like Katy Perry, only a lil shorter. -.-

Gosh, I'm coming down with a flu. I better finish looking for a job tomorrow and get my passport done.

p/s: Happy birthday in advance Shafiq. love love, hug, hug, big kiss for you from kakak. ;)

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Kentang, serai dan?

Greetings, friends. I am currently in Melaka for my break. Narrowing the place, I'm at Zana's house having a sleepover! ;) Thank you again sayang, for having me here.So what's the plan for tomorrow again?

Ouh yesss. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.Am kinda looking forward to it. Hehe.

I am job scouting too, since I figured that it'll be easier if I work here instead of in Sunway. Mom says that too.Hopefully there's work with good pay down here in Melaka.That trip to Singapore in February is a must! ;)

Sunday, November 14, 2010

It ends tonight

Grrrr. Mengantuknyaaaaa! Tomorrow is finally my last paperrrr! ;) All the best y'all.hahahaha.I super duper can't wait for tomorrow.

Dahh. Nak sambung study. Hehe.

Friday, November 12, 2010

I like that. ;)

Finallyyyy, a couple of days ago my money got in. And the world is not so bad anymore. ;)


And I got my bb. ;) That's it. I'm content.

Monday, November 08, 2010

Abnormal behavior

Well, sorry for being MIA for a few days. I got stuffs to handle. So, news?

I mean, good news that I won't be barred from the exams afterall. Haha. I might've exaggerate a little on the seriousness of the situation. It turned out that my prof just wanted a chat and for me to collect my letter. That's about it, nothing too serious. ;)

My mom and sibs are in town, since Friday and of course my mom being a mom, freaked out about the letter of disallowance thingy. Apparently I didn't inform her, and the news leaked to her somehow. I totally disapprove of big mouths, ya know. The last thing I want is for my parents to be worried about me. The least you can do dear, is keep your mouth shut and ask me first before yapping to mom about something that I'm not even sure of. Are we clear now? Good.

Tomorrow is my Psychology paper. Let's just hope that all is well, yeah. ;) I gotta admit, I love MCQs. It just put my mind at ease for one thing. Ouh, and please pray that my money will be in already when I wake up tomorrow morning. God, I'm really counting on that.

Okay, sweet dreams Earthlings. I got some research thingy to read before hitting the sack.

Thursday, November 04, 2010

Slap me in the face.

I don't wanna go to Uni tomorrow. ;( Am scaredddd. My prof is so gonna kill me. I'm trying to stay positive here.

Ouh well, positive thinking my ass. I'm freaking out. I better let myself off the hook tomorrow or I'm fried. The end.

Wednesday, November 03, 2010

;(

I am so gonna cry right now! I received a call from my science faculty saying that I need to collect a letter of disallowance tomorrow. God, I am so dead. I think they just disallow me from entering the exams. Shit. I think I've committed a serious offense and might be getting expelled because of this. Why on earth do I have another shit coming my way????

Gosh. I'll have to meet my prof tomorrow. I hope that he'll just listen to my reasons and take back the diallowance letter. Pray for me guys.

Mojo Dojo

Damn, its 5 am and I'm supposed to be studying or SLEEPING in my case, but I'm having a hard time falling asleep. Ughh. Which is why I'm yapping and yapping in my blog right now.

What's new? Ouh yeah.

My atm card got stuck in the effing atm machine last week. Lucky me, I assume. Its really a hassle to go to the bank and get my atm card, if you know what I mean. Or not? Whatever.

I think I'm putting on weight too, somehow these days. Staying at home here sucks. I ate a lot, sleep a lot and never get anything done. Best example, studying. What in the world is wrong with me? Its not healthy to sleep all day and munch on all the cholesterol I can lay my hands on. I am so gonna come down with a heart attack one day.

Am going to penyet tomorrow. Piling up my cholesterol I guess. Big fat pig. Pleaseeee. I dont wanna end up that way. ;(

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Officially tired of, I dont know. You?

Damn, I wanna go back home. Staying here is just sucking the life out of me day by day. Like wtf. I don't even care anymore. I'm done trying.

Ouh, yeah. All the best for my first paper tomorrow. FML.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

So it seems

I MISS THIS.
September 09.


They say we tend to hurt those closest to us. I don't know what is wrong with all of us lately, we hurt each other, we get mad at each other, and we never let it out. We got into a silly argument, apologize, but never really move past it. Then I thought, what changed between all of us? What drove us to go to the extend that we had, just to hurt each other?

I guess I've figured it out. We are so close that we thought our jokes, no matter how harsh, had little effect on the other. That's where we were wrong. We forgot. We ignored the fact that we were all friends, and friends take care of each other. Things might be hard on your friends, you should be there for them, not make things harder for them.

I realized that we no longer share our problems as much as we used to. I should have been there for you, and I know I haven't been much of a good friend lately, I've been busy and that's no excuse. For that, I'm sorry. But you know I'll be here when you need me, right?

One thing for sure, we gotta reduce the teasing and harsh jokes yeah? I kinda think that it somehow brings the bad side of us, and I don't wanna fight anymore. Lately I'm feeling sad, and I really need my friends and family on my side. That's why I love hanging around your room, where there'll be you guys who never failed to make me laugh. I hated being alone, that's the honest truth. ;(

Anyway, I know both of you are good friends, and I appreciate you guys being there for me through thick and thin. Much love, sayangs. Please, let's not fight again?

-.-

Wow. kena remove dari private reading list.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Watch me burn

And sometimes, I think I can't take it anymore.

Life's been giving me shit, and I've been holding on hoping it'll get better. They say there's a silver lining to every cloud. But where's mine? I've caught words that maybe mom and dad are getting a divorce. Hell, its been bothering me for days. I don't know how to react to that, so I've been putting up a front. In front of my sister, friends. I dare not cry. Because crying simply confirms the fact that they are splitting up after all, and never in a million years would I want that for them.

Things didn't get better with me dealing with stuff along the way. I have friends who listen. But how long will they be listening to me ranting over family stuff, my issues and all? I figured they are tired of it at some point. I am selfish. They have things to worry about too, right?

I can't talk to my family either, I'm suppose to be the strong one. I'm at a dead end, and I'm done talking. No matter how much I talk about it, no one understands. No one can help, I'm stuck with myself, thinking, hoping that everything will be better. Wishing for the bad things to be over. Yeah, God is testing me. But you see, I'm not good at handling it. I'm at breaking point now.

Really, I just can't take the shits anymore.

Monday, October 25, 2010

Brain Transplant (-.-)

I am back in Subang for a couple of days already now. Well, aside from work which is killing me now, nothing new arrived at my door. Its the Mid Summer Sales season now, and the ladies are storming in our store non-stop. Gosh, I hate ladies and our shopping habits. Damnnnn, the shop is in a mess and I'm about to run amok simply coz I'm just tired of arranging the clothes.

And so, this week I'm suppose to study, study and studyyy, seeing next week my first paper is on Monday. ;( Urghh. I hate finals. I'm just too lazy this sem to even study. But I told you guys that, already, didn't I?

Anyway, I'm home alone right now. Diana went out with Nur, and Mimi is not back here yet. I miss her already. There's just so many things that I wanna tell her. She'll be home tomorrow though, and I can't wait!

As for now, I'm bored. Mind me, will ya? :))


Mak cik Shakhina grinning.

She wanna play cak cak now.

Cak!

I love youuu, muahhhhh! ;)

Okayyy, I better go and study now.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Goodbye my almost lover

I am so sad right now after watching the latest episode of Vampire Diaries. Wth, seeing Stefan cry just makes me cry too. ;(

Damnn. I wish my boyfie would love me as much as Stefan. ;( But this world is no fairy tale. No Stefan for me to hug and cry on his shoulder. I gave up on loving someone that much a long time ago. Well, I guess that works well for me. I think so. I dont know.

Anyway, Leen gave me a song just now. And I think its sweet, and very appropriate for me. ;)
Here it is.


Goshh. SAD mood these days. sighhh.

Friday, October 22, 2010

Motherchuckerrr

Noticed my new layout? It seems like I have too much time on my hands to change layout, edit, yada yada. I'm still struggling to concentrate on studying though. During the day, I'll just wake up late, watch Supernatural and well do nothing. I'm a night person I guess, coz I really can't study in the day.

Dangggg, so may chapters to cover and all I've got left is a week. The stress is building up and I hate it! I wish it'll all be over soon. I'm having new dilemmas to deal with now.

Well, not so new because its my weight issues. Shit, I hate being fat. It just makes me feel so low. I shall start dieting from now onwards. I'm actually planning on oat diet. I hope that it'll work. Whatever it is, its a pressure for me to look good in my uniform AND to look good ALWAYS.

wth. I wish I was born skinny and pretty. ;(

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

So help me God

I'm stuck at home being a maid, and wtf, I can't study! It's not because of me helping out with the chores at home or anything. Its just me, doing shits and refuse to study. Ughhhhhh. I really really really don't want to screw up this time. So God, help me with this. Why am I so lazyyyyy?

I know I needed help, but I refuse to get it. What in the world is wrong with me? ;(

I need to study. I have to study. Finals gonna be hard, I'm not kidding you. To conclude, I simply MUST work harder.

But howwwwwwww????

haishh.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Homeeee. ;)

During hard times, to who do you guys turn to? I turn to my family. And so yesterday, I made the decision to spend my weekdays in Melaka. I boarded a bus at 4pm today and am safely at home now. I am grateful yesterday I have people who continued to cheer me up endlessly, and be my crying shoulder. Talking and talking and talking definitely makes me feel better. I love you guys!

Called my sister yesterday, she talked me into going back home. <3!
Thank you, Mimi for always lending your ears and be there for me. ;)

And also Apek who made me laugh so hard I regretted crying in the first place. Thank you, promise lepak next week okay? ;)

Family members who love you, and great friends. What more can you ask for? Its priceless. ;)

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Letter to the Moon

I had been dreading writing this up, since I promised myself that this will be an honest letter saying once and for all what I’m really feeling.

And here goes.

Ai,

There are so many things I’ve been meaning to say, thoughts that I needed to let out, but I wasn’t sure how to actually say it.Its been awkward, I know, for us to meet up. Would it be surprising if I say that I’m glad? Last year when you left me, things were really bad between us, I remembered deciding not to be friends with you anymore. I never regretted making that decision, it was the right call.

Although it was hard for me, I pull through. I sorted my feelings out, I know they say love is hard to erase, but the scars you left simply did the job for me. I never thought that a day would come when I had to thank you, but this is the day perhaps. I thank you, because by you leaving me I actually learnt to see everything in a clearer light. I became closer with my family and friends, and I am happy with my life. I’ll admit, things are tough for me lately, but in facing those stuffs, I am still happy. ;)

I must’ve told you this a lot of times Ai, and I really meant it. I forgive you for all the mistakes you have made in the past whatever it is that caused me hurt and grieve, everything. With that, I’d like to apologize too, for the harsh words I said, mean things I wrote, anything that caused you discomfort or embarrassed you. We both made a mistake by being together, and I’m already past blaming you. I think that both of us are grown ups, and we both gotta live past that. I need to live past that.

I know that going away is a challenge for you, with all the fun that’s hard to miss, but I really hope that you won’t waste your chance this time. You’re a smart guy, I know you can do whatever that you put your mind into. I really want you to succeed in obtaining a degree for yourself, and be someone that’ll make your parents proud. Be a better man while you’re there, and do me a favor will ya? Don’t hurt others the same way that you hurt me. That’s no way to treat a girl, and you know it. Mistakes should not be repeated, okay?

I can say for sure now that I don’t love you anymore. With you leaving, there’s finally a chapter in my book that I can finally close. You are always gonna be a part of my past Ai, and I’ve embraced that fact. I care about you, and that’s not gonna change. 4 years is a long time Ai, I will miss you and baby Sofia, but its for the best. Finally, I wish for happiness and success for everything in your future. I hope you wish the same for me too.

So I guess, this is Goodbye Ai.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Brokeback Mountain,huh?

I AM OFFICIALLY BROKE. NO MONEY TO EAT, NO MONEY AT ALL. Ouhh. How I dreaded this. Calling home for money. WTF. My gaji got stuck for awhile now. SAKET HATI. SAKET KEPALA. I'm feeling suicidal. Penatla mcm ni. Finals is just around the corner. I cant afford to be worrying about these kinda shit now. My brain is working too much. My body needed the rest. ;( I am just too tired. God, help me get through this.

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

Just not my luck

Its October already! So soon, huh? I'll be posting a post entitled "A letter to the Moon" on 16 or 17 of October, something you should wait for. ;)

And so today, I'm talking about an ex who's going away to study abroad. Well, it came as a shock to me at first, but I'm dealing okay. I envy him though, because the country he's leaving for is my main choice as I first applied for JPA. I had two countries in mind, Canada and Australia. Yeahh, as everybody is well aware of, I ended up stuck in Malaysia for my degree instead. Maybe it's just not my luck, but I wanted to study abroad so bad. It's a huge disappointment when I didn't get to go. Life's unfair. He gets to go there instead.

Moving on, tomorrow there's an event for students at the place where I'm working at. I hope that it'll be great! And I really really need new uniforms to go to work. Hee. The girls had announced dress up day tomorrow! pictures will come to you guys soon. Hang on tight, yeah.

On another more serious issue. We just heard that our scholar money isn't going to be out until another three months. This is really bad news to me, as I'm making barely enough money just to survive. It's more than four months that I'm living without my scholar money. Another three months is just too much for me to handle. ;( Sometimes I wish that I can curl up on my bed and just cry, and cry, and cry. But...........

Life goes on, and at least I have to be thankful that I have a job. I'll just etch up a smile, and presume life like everythings okay. ;)

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Some things are just too painful to say out loud.

For me to start writing is so difficult, when there's a lot of things that's been happening. I dont even know where to begin. I feel so numb, so empty. I can't cry, because it seems like something's stuck in my throat, I just can't let it out. ;(

I have no one I can talk to now, I just realized that. It seems like my friend are all busy living their own world, to be concerned about mine. And I just ended my friendship with Hilmey yesterday, which makes it all worse. I just decided that it's best for me to not be friends with someone who's only there to use me for his own benefits. Its really not my cup of tea. I grew tired of him, not being there for me and lying to me about things. He was supposed to be my friend. I dont need another manipulative liar in my life, that's why I told him I couldn't be his friend anymore.

As soon as I reach home yesterday, Mum told me that Dad had a second wife. It didn't come out as a shock, because I always knew that he had another woman. It breaks my heart when I have to hear it from my Mum, and not from him. I'll never forget the look on my Mum's face when she told me that.She's trying so hard to keep it all together, but I know that she must be broken inside to face the fact that my dad's unfaithful. She told me that he was married for three years, and that she knew all along but still kept it a secret. Poor her. I can't ever imagine myself being in her shoes. She said that she kept it a secret so that all of us won't hate Dad. Besides, my brothers were too young to know at that time. They were just kids, and even now I dont think that they're ready with this thing on their plate.

What I noticed at home is that my brothers are skipping school a lot. and by a lot, i mean really A LOT. Two days at least, per week. They're doing terrible in their exams, and they rebel a lot. I can't help but put the blame on my Dad somehow. When I was their age, I had my Dad everyday. He'll scold me if I were to skip school, and I had him with me to help me do my homework, yada yada. But its different for my lil brothers now. My dad will be home once or twice a week. They didn't seem to be getting that much attention from him, and I hated that. I think that its unfair for them to grow up without a dad by their side. And I'm devastated since there's nothing that I can do to make it all better. ;(

One thing I know for sure. My family is always gonna be my priority, no matter what. I've come a long way to realize that nothing else matter, as long as I have them. I really hope we can make this work somehow. Mom, Dad, I love you no matter what. Thank you for making me the person I am now. I am forever grateful for bringing me into this world. Whatever it is, lets get through this together, yeah?



married for 25 years.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Quick one

Its 2.30 am and I cant sleep. I'm going back to Melaka tomorrow, and I'm in a mess these days. ;( I can't wait to go back, and forget about the unnecessary stuffs I need to think about over here. The date for him leaving is drawing near, and I feel awful with each passing day. I hope the feeling will go away when he finally leaves. (-______-)

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Smile, get on with it.

Oh. My. God. I am currently busy with tons of assignments and lab reports plus quizzes due soon. But, one good news. I'm having my mid term break starting saturday! It's just one week though. Still, I'm glad that I get to have a few days off from all the hecticness in Monash. I'll be going back to Melaka next week on Tuesday, since I have a replacement lab on that day. Will be back here on Saturday morning since I have to go to work. Hee. Work's not that awful, so I'm not complaining.

I am also still counting down days to which I'll be temporarily rich. Same old, same old. Waiting for my scholar money.


The thing on my mind right now. MONEY.MONEY.MONEY. (-___-')

Monday, September 20, 2010

You can buy labels, but you can't buy style.

Lately my working days had taken most of my time, and my life seems to be a lot happier while I'm working too. Which leads to me being in heaven because:

DO YOU KNOW THAT ITS SO MUCH FUN TAKING CARE OF MEN'S FITTING ROOM? ;)

Yes, seriously. The boutique where I'm currently working have men and ladies section. I usually took care of the ladies section. But sometimes I got assigned t the men's section. Believe me, it was heaven! One, because the boutique where I'm working mostly sells trendy pieces for guys, *clue: most guys love this brand.* which also means that the guys purchasing here mostly are uber stylish men. ;))

Why I love taking care of the fitting room? Because I get to see glimpse of half naked guys changing. Okayyyy, NO. Thats not ENTIRELY true. But I can hardly see an ugly guy in there, what's not to love? Mostly I get good looking guys, or the not so good looking guys. hehe.

Enough of that, I'm explaining this since Mama Didie asked. Nope, mama. Not my new boyfriend for the status "he's so cute I'm gonna die!" lol.

On another not so important thing, Arick, the 'kakak' in the boutique started calling me pisau cukur for quite awhile now. Not because I am one, just because I look like one. Err, I dont think so. Mintak simpang. He said that it was kind of a compliment. Kudos to that. ;)

So on Saturday, I get to go to one of the girls open house! Finally I get to attend one, kalau tak, kempunan.


More eating sessions, equals to me gaining all the pounds I shed in Ramadhan. With Diana, Aisyah and Miza.


I have no idea why I look so dark in this one. With Mimi, Diana and Aisyah.

Okay, finally I have sent the JPA's agreement. It'll take about one month plus to be processed and I'll only get my allowance by then. Hopefully it wont take longer than that. I'm trying to settle off my debts soon. ;(

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Now you're gone.

I just found out about something just now. I guess that's why they say, be careful what you wished for. I remembered wishing in frustration for that certain someone to be gone. So it came as a shock to me that I finally get what I was wishing for.

The only problem is, I dont wish for it as much now. Honestly, thats how I'm feeling now. I never thought that I'd be affected this bad, but yeahh I'm kinda sad. God, its been a year. I thought I'm gonna be much stronger. Anyway, as usual I'll be pressing the OFF button to everything and do what I do best in a moment like this. BE HAPPY. ;)

"What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you?
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're okay?
I'm falling to pieces."

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Birthday girl run amok

Hey, ex-birthday girl here.

This post comes rather late as I was totally immensing myself in downloading songs, anddd yeah. So, yesterday after class, the girls and I went to pyramid(again) to celebrate my birthday. It was rather a simple but joyous celebration and I'm thankful for such great friends! :) We ate at my favorite place, Ayam Penyet Ria and watched Resident Evil 4: Afterlife. The movie was okay, and I can't wait for the next one! hehe.

There's nothing much to tell about my birthday. To begin with, I fought with my sisters plus cousin and they end up not wishing me at all. Kinda sad, but they made it up to me today. It turned out that they went to get the bestest birthday presents of all! Loads of it, in fact. ;D


This is us at penyet. See how chubby I look? Raya just started and I am already gaining so much weight!



These are about all my presents. Thank you so much! I love you girls so much! Hilmey gave me a card plus duet raya and my uncle got me the blouse.

I love this year's birthday so much as I get to spend it with my family and friends! hee. Mum wished me so early in the morning, and I feel so full of love for the rest of the day. ;)

Lastly, hope its not too late for me to wish all of you SELAMAT HARI RAYA! Maaf kalau ada menyakitkan hati or buat salah pada sesiapa, yeah? Kosong- kosong okay?


:))

Monday, September 13, 2010

Say, All the Happy Things


Birthday girl writing here. By analyzing the picture above, I am looking very happy indeed. Here's a quick update on what I've been doing while I'm missing from my favorite page.

Well, first of all, I did get myself a BOYFRIEND. And, I am also currently single.Some of you might be wondering, "Hows that?" Ermm, See I left him a couple of days ago, for irreconcilable differences. Lol. (-.-) Dont even ask me who is he, coz I dont even feel like he's worth telling about.

Next, will be the more exciting thing. Raya of course! This year, The Ahmadsss celebrated raya in Melaka. Grandma, uncle, aunt and her family was there as well. That was the first time my family hosted raya gathering, and mind you it was tiring! Anyway, it was all worth it to get to have friends over for first day of raya. Apek and Hilmey came over and I'm glad that I could see Apek. Its been awhile since I last saw him. :)

Moving on, second day of raya was my working day! *which technically means, triple pay. hehe. Of course I left home for KL early in the morning just in time to get to work. I just love working where I am now, thank God! ;) The people's good, and the pay too, alhamdulillahhh.

I shall stop ranting about stuffs and get back to the day! Its my birthday people, and I'm crossing my fingers for all the good things. ;)

I promise I'll update later today okay?

Lovessss,
Birthday girl.

p/s: Its only once a year that a girl can call herself birthday girl, so I'm drowning myself in it. hehe.

Friday, August 27, 2010

How can the day be so long?

Well, I never actually got around to writing my birthday wishlist. Its funny when I read back my birthday wishlist last year. So naive, so simple, just a normal birthday with my beloved boyfriend. CLICK HERE FOR LAST YEAR'S WISHLIST

This year I haven't quite figure out what I want for my birthday yet. Pretty much what I wrote on my birthday wishlist before this, I didn't get, so I'm just saving myself the trouble of writing it down this year.

How time flies. I'm gonna be nineteen already. I was so excited for my 18th birthday, but I'm not as excited this year. Reaching 19 means just another step to go to 20. OMG, I never imagine myself getting this old, honestly. But, who cares? I'm becoming more mature now, taking matters into my own hands. Working to pay for my expenses and all. Who would've thought that I would be this independent? I myself can't believe how different I am now. I guess circumstances can force us to do things we never thought we would.

Anyway, I'm working again tomorrow. I'm still wondering bila duet JPA nak masuk ni. Bengang kadang- kadang. I have to pay for so many things, but they are processing my allowance for too long!

I'll do it all over again. Yeah, I will.

Yesterday, was what I can say, THE WORST DAY EVER. I was struggling very hard trying to get what I want, I can't even concentrate on what my lecturers are saying anymore.

Have you ever had something that you want so much, you're just simply not gonna let it go? Be it a new phone, new bag, dress, whatever. Just that one thing that you've been chasing for. Its right in front of you, but it seems that you can't grab it. Feels bad isn't it? Well, to be honest this particular thing had been on my mind for almost a year now. This thing had brought me into a very long, winded journey. I keep questioning myself, why can't I get it, after everything that I've done?

So I was all moody and sad and devastated yesterday. Mimi, Diana and I decided to catch a movie to cheer me up after berbuka. We went to college since there's an iftar there, (might as well save money on food and spend it on movie tickets, you see) and food is free! Okay, I was just expecting a quiet evening to clear my mind off things. But then guess who showed up there? Aizat again. I feel like literally having a breakdown yesterday. A few tears escaped my eyes, but Mimi cheered me up instantly.

I dont even know what got into me yesterday, maybe I was a little emotional. But I really think that it was a bad timing for him to show up. I didn't hate him or anything, I just wish that I won't be seeing him around, ever. He's a part of my life I'm still trying hard to forget. The least he could do is to stay away from me. I even prayed that he'll move to another country sometimes. Reality's not working that way, so it seems. I don't know about anything anymore. :(

And my birthday's coming soon. Looks like I'll be all alone for my birthday too, this year. Nevermind, maybe I should start listing down my birthday wishes to cheer me up. Will post it up later though.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Japanese to Americans. Ouhh.


So this is where I used to work at, until last week actually. Thank God for another job offer which I took, and I am more than glad to leave that place. Its not that I hated the job, its just the uniform and the smell of it after I got back from work.

SMELL: meaning bau hangit because I'm in the kitchen sometimes, and that place serve Japanese DIY Teppayanki.

Anyway, my new job is something I prefer more which is basically being a promoter. You know the one standing to greet you when you enter a store? That's kinda me now. The pay is better than Pepper Lunch and I get to work ONLY ON WEEKENDS! So, I'm not complaining much.

Okay, I better start complaining now, its not normal for me to not complain. hehe. My legs are hurting terribly from standing for 8 hours and running here and there to arrange the clothes yada yada. It was not as terrible as when i was working in Takasima, but it was equally tiring. I love working there though. I met a few nice people there, but of course I need time to adapt, AGAIn. Hopefully everything goes smoothly for me in the future.

ANDDDDD, NOPE. I'm not telling you guys where i'm working now. :)
Come and visit me sometimes though. heeee.

You need help with your brain, sister?

And so, here I am again in this not-so-boring but cold library. Let me tell you this. I really need to vent my anger somewhere somehow. Having new housemates who manage to put my life in a very miserable condition is something I need people to applaud for. Damnnnnnnnnn.

We actually have internet access for one day, thankyouverymuch. The streamyx guy finally came, and everything was fine until someone dropped the modem and spoils it. And that someone seems to not want to help make the situation better by calling streamyx or what. She just stays in her perfect little world. I of all people would love to give her a good smack in the head! ughhhh. I am tired for having to go to work and I need to finish my assignments and quiz and stuff and THAT REQUIRES INTERNET ACCESS, YOU FOOL. Luckily mimi and I are working on fixing it,(like calling my brother and the internet guy again and again and again).

Lets just hope that the matters will be solved SOON. I could lose my temper if I tolerate any more of her nonsense. LIKE SERIOUSLY.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Stuck in the moment. :)





With you,
With you,
I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place

Now Romeo & Juliet,
Bet they never felt the way we felt,
Bonnie & Clyde,
Never had to hide like,
We do,
We do

You and I both know it can't work,
It's all fun and games,
'til someone gets hurt,
And I don't,
I won't let that be you
Now you don't wanna let go,
And I don't wanna let you know,
that there might be something real between us two, who knew?
Now we don't wanna fall but,
We're tripping in our hearts and it's reckless and clumsy,
'cause I know you can't love me hey

I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place,
But everything we have is stuck in the moment,
And there's nothing my heart can do (can do),
To fight with time and space 'cause,
I'm still stuck in the moment with you

See like Adam & Eve,
Tragedy was a destiny,
Like Sunny & Cher,
I don't care,
I got you baby

See we both,
Fightin' every inch of our fiber 'cause in a way,
It's gonna end right but,
We are both too foolish to stop


Now you don't wanna let go,
And I don't wanna let you know,
that there might be something real between us two, who knew?
And we don't wanna fall but,
We're tripping in our hearts and it's reckless and clumsy,
And I know you can't love me hey

I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place,
But everything we have is stuck in the moment,
And there's nothing my heart can do (can do),
To fight with time and space 'cause,
I'm still stuck in the moment with you

See like,
Just because this cruel cruel world saying we can't be,
Baby, we both have the right to disagree,
And I ain't with it,
I don't wanna be so old and grey,
Reminiscin' 'bout these better days,
But convince just telling us to let go,
So we'll never know

I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place,
'cause everything we did,
And everything we have is stuck in the moment,
Yeah

I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place,
But everything we have is stuck in the moment,
And there's nothing my heart can do,
(Nothing my heart can do),
To fight with time and space 'cause,
I'm still stuck in the moment with you,
Yeah,
Whoa whoa

Justin Bieber really knows how to put my life in perspective. lol. I just love the lyrics to this song. And I love him! ngahaha.


Slumdog millionaire. haha.

I wonder why the streamyx guy take ages to install streamys in our house! I'm stressed out due to lack of internet. (Am I actually whining about this again??) I hope they do it soon. I'm missing out on a lot of blog posts to write actually. And I currently forget just about everything that I intend to write.

Where to begin huh?

Okay, MY WORKING DAYS.

I started working in a fast food restaurant on wednesday right? It was TIRING AS HELL. I worked for four hours, but it feels like I'm actually working double the time! Well, I have to clean, send orders, yada yada. Bless them, that I didn't have to cook! Haha. It's a great exerience la, to be able to work in that kind of place with such an ugly uniform. (I'm not exaggerating here, the uniform IS UGLY, really. You know the uniform for prisoners? That's how it looks like. Only worse.) I am currently working for only four days per week. On weekends and wednesday and thursday, because I cant afford to miss out on doing my assignments or anything.

So far, I'm only having troubles with my lab reports as I tend to do it so last minute! I think if I can overcome this problem, ALL IS WELL then. :)

Moving on to Hilmey(again). haha. We remain friends afterall. Even closer than before, and I'm surprised, I'll admit that. I don't know exactly why, but it seems likehis trying to be closer to me. No worries, I'm still bearing in mind that he has someone already. So screw him for not telling me the truth, really! I kinda hold a grudge against him for that. haha. Nahh. He's good to me, so I'm not gonna complain much.

Anyway, wish me luck for my first assessment tomorrow. It's chemisry and I've been absent minded during lectures, so I think I'm dead tomorrow. (-___-')

Ehh wait.
SELAMAT BERPUASA, EVERYONE!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Of vampires and blood.

Hot news today:



I DONATED BLOOD!



hee. not exactly hot news or anything, but because this is my first time, I'm over excited! :) At first I was awfully scared, seeing the needles. I mean, man, IT'S SO BIGGGGG! but when the nurse poke it on my arm, it doesn't hurt that bad. I'm glad that its over though. I cried a little because I was scared, but it was nothing, really.


And my blood fully filled the bag in five minutes! (told ya the needle was big right? -.-) So fast! I feel a little lightheaded after that, which was normal. The point is, my blood will be transfused to those in need! How awesome is that?




The setting was a little like this la. Very comfortable indeed. :)


So, I am definitely encouraging everyone to go and donate your blood. Especially those who have rare blood types, like AB. It will only take up alittle of your time, but will help others big time. :)


Ouh btw, my blood is O type. hee.

Monday, August 09, 2010

Kenapa saya marah awak? Kenapaaaaaaa?

Woohoo. Told ya I'm gonna be missing for a while. THIS IS ALL BECAUSE OF NO INTERNET. Effing annoying. I'm still wondering when the streamyx guy is gonna set up our internet line. Probably this week. NO. I NEED IT to be this week. *sighhh. Assignments are piling up, lack of internet didn't seem to help at all.

Okay, let's not dwell on the internet thingy shall we?

Look what I've been making myself busy with!!

TADA!!
I am obsessed with blinging! Nahhh, not exactly obsessed, but just excited to bling my phone. See how it looks like now? AWESOMEEEEE!

Favourite new thing I suppose. :)

College is okay, and normal, which is weird in a way. ( See, I never expected it will be normal or anything)

But, I gotta say this. I am kinda pissed at JPA for the very very late allowance. Its not even in now. :( And I'm flat broke. AGAIN.

So, starting this wednesday, I'm working part time! The pay is low, but still, I need to survive somehow right? And I need money for food especially. It's fasting month now kan. I wonder when will my scholar money be ready? :((

Happy working for me though.



Monday, August 02, 2010

Saya suke pergi berkhemah. SUKEEE sangat.

Hahaha, Title post yang sangat mengong. Alkisahnya, I went camping a couple of days back. Where? At Gunung Datuk, Negeri Sembilan.

Just a fast fact: I NEVER WENT ON A CAMPING TRIP BEFORE! Which is funny, since I'm nineteen, and all. So, I figure, why not? Its a last minute decision, and last minute packing and all. But me, and the kids from One, arrived safely on Saturday. Its a 2 hours journey from KL to the camping site, but I wasn't that excited to go anyway. (part of the reason was that Hilmey didn't come along.) Two days spent there was okay, and I end up having fever when I got back here.

I'm still feeling feverish, so I'll leave you guys with a few pictures from there then. -.-'



All the ladies from my team in red. Well, except for Yan of course.



Taro, my next favourite person, in Blue! and the rest of us.

Ouh, btw. Ramadhan is drawing near. Have all of you finished ganti puasa? Better do it soon, yeah? :) I've finished replacing mine.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Happy birthday, suga.

Its the first day I’m seeing Hilmey after my infamous “I got rejected” breakdown. Well, I thought it was going to be super awkward, but luckily it wasn’t! haha. I met him for awhile just now, and we both acted normal. Even before that, we texted as usual. Fuhh. I’m glad it didn’t exactly ruin our friendship. :)

Anyway, now I can finally concentrate on his coming birthday tomorrow. *which also means tonight, at 12.

So, I’m meeting Syida to get details on whatever plan there is tomorrow. As for my personal gift, I just made him a card. Mimi said that it might not be a good idea to get him a gift, since maybe he’d think that I have feelings for him for sure. Lol. I know. Its kinda complicated. I hope that he likes it though. The card, the surprise, the everything! I’m crossing my fingers for the best tomorrow. hee.

I’ll update on the birthday and stuff later, okay. Nak pegi makan dlu. I puase ganti. btw. =P

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Things that I least expected

Remember about the confession thingy the other day? Hilmey didn't really gave a response at that time kan?



This morning he texted me.



Well, first of all, I reach home at 5 in the morning. And of course I didn't read the message until much later. His message basically says:
1. he's sorry for responding a lil too late.
2. he likes me, but he cant love me.
3. he wanted to stay friends.
4. he didn't know why he OVERCARED about me.
5. overall he's sorry for everything.

AND NOW I FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF.

With him making clear that he didn't feel the same way was one thing. To think that I could lose a close friend was another. I wasn't even wide awake when I read the message. I started crying immediately. I didn't really think that it mattered that much to me in the beginning, whether he likes me or not. That's why I didn't expect to feel like this. I didn't realize that it ACTUALLY matters. Then I realize that I ACTUALLY love him. It wasn't just a crush, it wasn't just an infatuation, it wasn't just me liking some random guy, but I love him, really. And sadly, he's in love with someone else.

I know everything will go back to normal after his birthday party, but what about my feelings? It'll never go back to normal. As much as I wish that I could actually turn back time, what is already said cant simply be taken back. I wish that I have no answer in the first place, but then, having an answer is much better than to keep wondering.

So what's left for me now is to move on. And that's why I need these.

Please buy me a bucket of these, thank you.

I'll cry for some time until then.

Friday, July 23, 2010

What if, you said it first?

What is the one thing that's keeping me sane these days? Well, you guys could've guessed the answer, I'm sure of that. Hilmey la of course. And it is no longer a secret that I kinda like him, right? That is why in the previous post I had mentioned walking away from him hurts, macam putus cinta. Haha. I did something funny, and stupid today. Ughh. Up until now, I still am in denial to what I did, really.

Here goes.

Next week, on 29th of July, is Hilmey's birthday. So, the kids planned on making him miserable this whole week, and we're gonna do a surprise birthday party for him on his birthday. My task, was simple. I just need to bother him everyday, telling him that I have a huge problem. That problem MUST give him a headache.

And, I have no idea what problem I'm suppose to create. Then, I thought of something. I thought, maybe if I confess that I have feelings for him, he'll have enough headache to last for a week! ( which is stupid, I know. because I ACTUALLY LIKED HIM.) but, I thought it was a good enough idea since next week he'll know that its not true, (although its true la.) and he'll never know the truth if it goes bad.

God, I NEVER in my whole entire life, say to a guy, that I actually like him. (meaning that, I say it first, not him, get it?) My face was terribly hot, and I feel like I'm coming down with fever when I actually confessed. And God knows how embarrassing it iwas! I literally feel like dying that instant! I risked my friendship with him, and everything we had, at that very moment. I was lucky that he reacted normally, and understood what I felt for him.

BUT....

He actually didn't comment on my statement. Which kinda shows that he's not having the same feelings. I asked about the girl I assumed was his girl, but he just said that she's his best friend. Nahh, I dont think that it's the truth though. They were really close, I couldn't have guessed wrong. I was devastated, but glad at the same time. I get to let my feelings out, and next week he'll just think that its some funny prank I played on him.

There's finally an answer to what I keep wondering. Is there really gonna be a chance for us? Now I know for sure, there's none. Its one sided, and I know that I can move on without pondering on the possibilities, otherwise. ;)

Nice plan, huh?




So, saje nak dramatic, upload our pics together. Konon konon kecewa.
Okay, tipu. Memang kecewa. (-_-')



Anyway, I know that he'll always be a good friend of mine. No matter what changes after this, I won't regret ever expressing what I feel in the first place. Why lie to yourself kan?

:)

At least I feel better now. hee.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

And so, we have to say goodbye.

Yeah, finally I managed to squeeze in some time to update my dusty blog. Haish, I gotta admit, living with the internet on my mobile phone is simply not enough. I kinda miss seeing webpages in its original size, not the shrunken ones!

Anyway, about a week ago, on 15th of July 2010 at Sunway Hotel Resort & Spa almost all of us MUFY kids, gathered for a dinner and our graduation. On the day itself, I remembered last minute dress hunting and last minute showering, make up, yada yada yada. Mimi came with her parents and I tag along. :) We arrived half an hour late, and the registration tables are already emptied. ( You could just assume that we crashed the dinner, actually.)

The dinner was great, a six course meal, I believe, and I especially love the dessert. Honey dew and yucky stuff, but it tasted so good! So, we grab our certs of completion, take some pictures and leave. Nothing much happened that day, not so much drama whatsoever, but it was fun seeing everyone after such a long time. :)

Now, enough of chit chatting. Here are the not so awesome pics!

The fitting session. Must be awful for Mimi, several shops I believe, had been messed up that day, just to find the so called "perfect dress". Not so perfect la in the end, thanks to my flabby arms.
Myself and the gay friend of mine. (He's not gay actually, its just an inside joke).I haven't seen him in ages! Okay, I'm exaggerating. We both had been busy with classes and all, so we barely had time to catch up. haha.


Ladies in blue! I wonder why all of us had come up with dresses of the same colour. It was nice though. Ade gang kan? hehehe.

Meerah, Mimi and I. in between photo taking sessions. lol. ;P


My dates on that night.
Nahhhhhh. Just the guys who tends to turn my world upside down. From left, Iman, myself, Khairin, (I dont know the bald guy), and Julian.
Okayy. Enough of grad stories. Well, let's talk about my sakai looking hair after a 10 mins haircut. Like what? :(


See for yourself. Aiyo.
Dear hair, please grow much faster this time, I won't cut you off as ugly as this. I promise. :)


Monday, July 19, 2010

Yeah, all I need is you.

I shall write less from now on. Why? Well, mainly because I've moved into a new house(yet again), this time somewhere even dodgier from casa subang. And in this very ugly looking house, there's no internet yeah. Me and my housemates are living surrounded by pakistanis and bangladeshians. Danggggg, I'm hitting my head even harder now, since I can't even process the fact that my life has downgrade so much this few months. And JPA isn't helping either. I wonder why does it takes forever just to bank in the money to us poor kids! Life sucks big time without money. Like, sucks sucks sucks!

Well, enough of that.

Have you guys been to the I-CITY? Well, if you're from Shah Alam especially, you must've been there a thousand times at least! Only me, Si Jakun, finally went there last week. This time, I went there with Hilmey, Ikin, Syida and Yan. :)



Okay, the deer looks familiar. Remember my post back then, when I visited a place in Melaka with lighted animal replicas? Yeah, its pretty much the same.



This place gives off Winter Sonata vibe. HAHAHA.



Syida with a blurry picture. Credits to me, for the shaky hands. hehehe.



Finally, a picture of myself. DARKEN. Thanks to Hilmey anyway for taking me there.

It was a great night as I remembered. All of us had fun bonding and cheering each other up. I wish for things to be the same now. :(

Here's the thing. Hilmey and I are not really on good terms now, partly because I've decided to walk away from him. It saddens me not texting him or calling him or seeing him. Yet, I know I've set my feet down on this matter. I guess I just have to deal with it then.

Shit. Why does it feel like I'm having a bad break up? I'm not even in a relationship with him, for God sakes! Well, I don't even know what to think now. But it kinda hurt me, being away from him and all. Let it be lah kan?

Okay, this post is awfully long. So, bear with me in the next post as I write about MUFY Grad Night 2010. Till then, Albrinz, stop blog-stalking me and posting it up on fb okay? I'll smack you if you ever do that next time. ;)

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Yeah, how time flies. In less than two days I'm heading back to college. Opps, correction. Its University now. I've been busy settling my Uni fees, and getting ready these days. Its like entering a new school all over again. Although I'm pretty sure that I'll be seeing a lot of familiar faces in Monash, but I'm kinda thrilled to start anew. Lets go MANHUNTING, ladies!! Nahh, I'm kidding. I know there'll be nothing much to find in Monash anyway. :)

BTW, I went to Monash for the first time the other day. And it was HUGE, and awesome, andddddd well, everything to do with awesomeness laaa. I cant wait to get started! I know I'm gonna end up being super busy, but nevermindddddd. I'll deal with it.



I guess that's it for now. Nak makan doraemon cake anyone?