what more can we save? there's nothing left. even to walk on the same street, exchange glances, and look away, that's too much for us. i learnt from bio that heart is a myogenic organ. that it has its own mechanism. that's so true. obviously my brain cant control the rhythm of my heart. in which it gets faster everytime that u're near. i thought that its beat, should get normal by now. but it didnt. my brain shut u down, but my heart is completely unnafected.
yes, i chose to remember only the good values in u. and i'd like to believe that someday u'll grow up and be a real man. we all make mistakes, and sometimes we didnt know how bad the consequences will be. we being together was a mistake in the first place, and the consequences are hard to bear,definitely. but the thing that i'm most afraid of now is that, i just might turn into someone like u.
the mistakes u made, i'm afraid of repeating it. i'm afraid of doing that to someone else. maybe i had did that already. u certainly taught me well, that i dont feel whatever things that i was doing which was similar to u, wrong. and it scares me. it scares me to hurt others the same way u did. but can i help it now? i hope i can. i know i'm a billion times better than u. GOD, let me be a billion times better than u. and i choose to be better than u. i'm gonna bring happiness, and only happiness. u might make my heart beat faster, but there's others who's heart is beating faster because of me. so, live with it.