Thursday, June 30, 2011

The obedient one

Is me. I'm not perfect but I tried to be obedient. Maybe I should try harder next time. I never knew you guys were so hard to please.

But sometimes, I'm tired too. A lil 'thank you' would be nice to hear.
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Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Semut punya pasal

Mom's mad at me because of the ants. Its not really my fault that the ants got into the food right? I know tht the food is all wasted, but she could always ask me to cook new stuffs right?

And why be mad at me because I went to the movies? I only went with my long time bestfriend, Rakina and she's over the roof mad. She's not even talking to me now.

I hate it when I've done my best, and its still not enough. Today sucks. I feel like screaming out loud, but no sound would come out. Bye. Early day again tomorrow.
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Monday, June 27, 2011

Beware Green Lantern's light!

Hello Earthlings! Sorry for missing for awhile. Anyway, its all good now.

Tiba tiba je its all good kan. I know you can guess why. Exams are finally OVER!! Last paper was on Tuesday, and on Thursday me and my girls went for an all fun day at Sunway Lagoon! And I got burnt bad now. Not THAT dark though, thank God. :) I went back home on Saturday and currently am enjoying the good life in Melaka and planning to do so for a month or so.

Luckily there's a side story. Starting from tomorrow, I'll be in charge of the education and well being of my younger sibs @ I'll officially be a maid at home. You know, doing the usual thingssssss. This time a lil hard core coz I have to get up at 7 am and all. Meaning, earlier sleeping time. 12 something I guess. Early right??

Well, big sis gotta sacrifice for the lil rascals. Hehehe. I'll write more, maybe tomorrow or the day after coz I'm desperate to get some sleep. Its already 1.20 am now. I'm dead if I cant get up tomorrow.

Note to self: Watching Super 8 tomorrow with Apek. I hope the movie's okay though, coz I heard it was kinda boringgg. Am exercising a maid's rights to watch movies tomorrow! Goodnight.

Monday, June 20, 2011

Because you're special

I am writing this at 2am, so I must be crazy. NOT. Although its 2 hours late, it doesn't matter. The thought that counts afterall right?

Happy father's day Ayah! :D thank you for bringing me into ths world, for raising me up, for being the best dad I could ever ask for. I love you for working hard night and day to provide for us. You're the bread winner of the family, so precious, so stay healthy okay?

Also,I am grateful for a wonderful father like you, coz you made me into the person I am today. We seldom talked, but I know you care about us kids a lot. This 20 years as your daughter have been an honour. I wouldn't trade you for anyone else. :)

Lots of love, xx.

Final note: how's ur day guys? Mine was great! Mom cooked chicken rice, and it was yummy! She hadn't cooked for a long time and so it was good to eat her cooking again. Hehe. :) love ya momsie! Will miss ur cooking when I'm back in Subang. T_T
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Friday, June 17, 2011

When its time to go


Gambar hiasan.

Have you ever wondered how long you're gonna live? To be honest, I've never really ponder on that matter seriously before. I've always thought that I'll live a long healthy life.

But you can never be too sure these days.

Two of my schoolmates recently passed away. Both as a result of health complications. Both at the age of 20. Life is short for them right? Too short. They left too soon. I know that its their time to go. Allah loves them more, and so they're tested that way. I cannot help myself but feel sad at the lives lost, and how unappreciative of life I am.

I feel like I haven't live myself to the fullest yet, to say that I can die happy now. I have so many things in life that I wanna do and I am thankful that Allah still gives me life to live, to learn, make mistakes, fall and get back up again. I'm thankful that I can still be with the ones I love, to enjoy their company and cherish the moments I have with them, before that final draw of breath.

I know I had been unsatisfied with life before. I know how ungrateful I was. Astaghfirullahalazim.

Thank you Allah for giving me another day to live. Alhamdulillah.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Dead of night

My second last paper today was, okay I think, compared to the previous ones. And since I had been wanting to catch a movie since finals started, I went to watch Dylan Dog, Dead of Night just now. :)

I must say that I was quite dissapointed by the draggy storyline. I expexted it to be more interesting when I watched the trailer, but sadly the funny parts are only in pieces here and there.

Minus all that, I had a great time having date night with Amiron. Thanks for the dinner and movie, and for being such a pleasant company. :)

Ouh. And I ran into Eimal while I was in OU. He mentioned abt Adam and his operation and all. I know I've promised to go visit him, but Apek and I just couldn't find the right time. Hang in there ya buddy? We'll be visiting soon. :)

Goodnight loves, I'm totally beat now. Talk to you soon, xx.
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Monday, June 13, 2011

I'm sorry, I love you

Ever wondered why the tongue is as sharp as a knife? Or words for that matter. I don't know what is up with me these days. I've said mean things, stupid things, you name it. Is it the stress, or loneliness that got into me? Well, I have no idea. Just maybe its me having ridiculous thoughts of no one who understands me, no one for me to talk to, or no one to listen to me whine.

Indeed, humans are ungrateful right? No, I mean, I AM ungrateful. I have wonderful friends who are always there. A lot of people to blurt my problems to. And they listen, and listen without fail. Somehow I feel like my words might've hurt them unintentionally. And for that, I'm really sorry.

I'm not asking for understanding to what I've said, for there's no turning back on things said and done. Just know that I was being ridiculous and I didn't mean what I said. For hurting you, and disappointing you, I am terribly sorry. For being such a coward with this apology, I am sorry. For being a self-centered bitch, I'm sorry too.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Beauty is pain

Because I got blisters from my heels, and my knees hurt so bad from the previous fall I think. I don't know why my knees would hurt, but it did, unfortunately.

Okay, so today Mimi and I went to Penyet since we're so hungry and all. Its been awhile since we had time to go for a nice meal. I'm glad we went and stuff ourselves full! Hehe. And we got ourselves new nails! :) I love love it. Hehehe

So tomorrow I might be going out with Enilda, I'm not sure if she'll be here, I hope she would. I haven't seen her in a while, it'd be nice to catch up! Talk to ya laterr aight? Goodnight, I hve to go to sleep now, legs are killing me! :(
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Saturday, June 11, 2011

Gotta be Somebody



I am officially depressed. I'm turning twenty in another 3 months or so, and I cant afford acting the way I was anymore. I can't afford regretting things unsaid. I can't afford not saying things on my mind.

I see people who's honest and unpretentious and I envy them. I see people who isn't hypocrite and not afraid of being themselves and I envy them.

You see, I care too much about other people's feelings that I always end up hurting mine.

Monday, June 06, 2011

Finals fever!

I'm pretty sure Monashians are dealing with wht I'm dealing right now. Everyone stayed in their room, or looked too immersed in their studying to be bothered. Yeah, the stress is on my dear friends. Bring it on, baby! :D

What do you guys do, when you've read too much you could throw up? Well, some play computer games, watch movies etc. Me? I'm pretty much the same. Lepaking, bothering ppl is part of my job. Heh?

Okay, well, other thn tht, I destress by playing rubiks. Its been there with me fr my exams every year since aftr spm. Good mind exercise I think. Especially after the brain has been twisted ths way and tht by books and notes. :D

Just a quick update, yeah. First paper is on Wednesday, Biotech. And followed by Chemistry the day after. Pray for me okay? I'll keep u guys in my prayers too. :)

Note to self: If I ever have to choose again, I'll study law or nutrition instead of this. I keep questioning why did I chose science. And I believe I've found the reason; maybe I just wanna make my life miserable as it is. T_T
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