Thursday, January 31, 2013

Kung fu panda

Thank God for supporting family and friends. I survived yesterday just fine. Despite having no sleep at all, I went to work this morning all smiles and rainbows and sunshines. Thank God for caffeine! I lost count of how many cups of coffee I've taken, but I'm pretty sure its a lot, considering the fact that I'm still awake and typing now. Blergh.

Never in my student life have I ever not sleep at all, even when submitting super tedious assignments! I will usually have a minimum one hour nap, before waking up to go class or continue with the day. 

Now, I'm at work, and its already 3 pm. I somehow fell asleep in the toilet just now, so I drink more coffee. Now I'm hyper but my head hurts, and my body's sore. 

  I need to sleep. Soon. 

I'm cranky, I'm bitchy, and I hate everyone now.

I will have 12 effing hours of sleep tonight. I will murder anyone that disturbs my sleeping time.

I fucking will.

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Hot mess

These days have been.....SHITTY. AS FUCK. I can't wait to finish my intern life and get back to my student life.

These 29 days better get by fast. I am in a complete mess right now. I don't know if I can tolerate any more crap from work. Or crappy people, for that matter. The next time I feel like slapping a person, I might not be able to hold the urge to do it and might end up slapping that person across the face for real. Or I might kick some balls, after doing that. Mind you, I have some violent thoughts going through my mind as I'm typing this.

May I be rid of annoying, degrading people soon.

May I have the patience to at least continue with all smiles for 29 more days.

I don't give a fuck anymore. I just don't effing wanna give a fuck anymore.

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

A month from now

I have exactly 30 days to spend here at my intern place. This is it. The final month.

Monday, January 28, 2013

Six degrees of separation

First, you think the worst is a broken heart
What's gonna kill you is the second part
And the third, is when your world splits down the middle
And fourth, you're gonna think that you fixed yourself
Fifth, you see them out with someone else
And the sixth, is when you admit that you may have fucked up a little - The Script

Friday, January 25, 2013

In love, again!

Well, goodbye Collin! I've found new love. He's 43 and he's married with two kids, but its fine. Why? Because HE IS JUST TOO HOT!


I love the his 'bad boy' look.

And I love his super cute comedic look.


I know that it might be a lil too late to ask you this. But, can you please, please, please be mine? :) 

You sexy beast. Just be mine. 

CSW, I'm all for you now baby. xx

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Post apocalypse

Hello people! Its post-genetics paper!!!! I am so glad that its finally over,
I can't stop grinning from ear to ear. Yeah, that's how much I like it. :)

If you guys are on my twitter, you guys would've noticed my VERY VERY VERY depressing nervous posts about taking the paper. I was so scared that its a hard unit, and I was even more scared that I might not have prepared well for it. 

Bottom line is. I'm glad that its finally over.

Thank God for bestfriends! Thank you guys for tolerating my whiny ass these few days. Okay la, I'm thankful for tolerating my whiny ass since like, forever. Hehe, You know who you are, xx.

So, after the paper yesterday, I went out and had a big fatty lunch by myself. And last night, finally a nice catch up session with Haliq! Its been too long since I last saw him and its good to finally meet up and stuffs. :)

More plans for this weekend! Apparently, the office let me have Friday off, and I'll be going back to Melaka today! Its a long five-day holiday, I'm excited to spend time with my family. I'll be meeting up with Apek and the girls as well if our plan's are still on. Good weekend I sure hope it'll be.. :)

For now, I gotta rush through things as I have plenty to be submitted! :) TTFN

Monday, January 21, 2013

Just because

Awesome song for an awesome Monday morning. :)

Sunday, January 20, 2013

True true.

"If a guy wants to be with a girl, he will make it happen, no matter what." -He's Just Not That Into You (2009).

I am the rule, not the exception.

And I'm dealing with it.
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Saturday, January 19, 2013


Its 7.45 am, on a Saturday, and I'm up and freshly showered! Such a nice start to my weekend. Hehe. I had ample time to sleep last night (more than enough sleep I think), for 10 hours straight! I love having a good night's sleep, especially since I've been having trouble sleeping lately. So its all good. :)

Anyways, I have to get back to studying soon. There's plenty to cover and I have the weekend to myself to do just that. I'm starting to feel nervous about the paper, but I'll just have to kick that thought far far away for now.

Now, what to have for lunch? Hehehehe
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Friday, January 18, 2013

Because Mimo said so

To find my own Chuck Bass.


And because I adore them! :) Happy Friday, and have a great weekend!


Thursday, January 17, 2013

It amazes me

It amazes me how I can like a guy so much in such a short period of time. It also amazes me that I would go to such lengths to try to make him mine.

For the first time ever, I feel the need to pursue him. And so I did. Or thought I did.

I never pursue a guy. Never. I just don't do that. This only goes to show that I like him very much huh? Blerghhh. Why oh why? -,-'

They say with a guy its very simple. If he's interested, he'll be pursuing. If he's not, then he's not. There's no "maybe", or "its complicated" or "it can wait" stuffs. Its a simple case of a "yes" or a "no"

So the answer's pretty obvious and staring at me right in the face right?

Ughh. I hate the fact that I can't seem to accept that he doesn't like me. I hate that I can't help but like him more and more. I hate that I can't seem to stay away from him.

Which leads me to believe that I am indeed a very foolish girl. I mean, who else is dumb enough to continue liking a guy who has no feelings for her, whatsoever?

That probably would just be me.

If only I can flip a switch and turn off my feelings for him. That'd be awesome and it'd sure makes my life easier.
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Dire times

Hello people, your favorite slacker at work is back!! I'm supposed to be studying, but here I am taking a break from banging my head from frustration. Why? Because I'm too sleepy. Because what I read doesn't seem to stick in my head. Because I'm full? Because I'm whiny and needy.

That's why.

Anyways, I can't wait to finally finish my deferred paper! I am itching to watch more movies, and be a part-time potato couch once again! Thinking about that makes me happy like crazyyyyy. I miss watching dramas. I miss reading my novels. I miss having nothing to worry about.

Unfortunately, this week is critical. I can't afford to fail. I don't want to graduate later than expected.

God, help me get through this.  

Now, back to studying. :)

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Crappy day

Yeah, today had been a very shitty day. I'm gonna save you guys the trouble of describing it in detail by concluding:

That it was a shitty shitty day.

Cold feet and...

Irritating body behavior. The nearer it gets to the deferred exam date, the sicker I get. Its freaking annoying! I know for sure that in a couple of days, if I don't consume paracetamol like mad, I'll end up having a one week long fever!


Mainly because I haven't had fever in two years now. And because it looks like my tonsils are starting to act up again. I'm worried sick about the paper next week, literally then. 

I hate being sick. Hate it. Please Chak, try not to get sick, will ya? I need to be healthy and all to cover all this molecular genetics shit.

Monday, January 14, 2013

Childish behavior

Apparently, I'm childish. Someone told me that.


Okay fine. I am childish.

Got a problem with that?

I love childish me, because I'm me. I won't trade me for anyone else in the world! Yeah, I'm cool like that. :P

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Good thing I went for a drive

I slept for a very long time last night, though it was not a very fulfilling sleep as I'd end up waking every couple of hours or so. Despite all that shit, I managed to wake up early! On a Sunday, with rainy weather!

This is mainly due to my baking stuffs hunt. I left the house at 11 am in the very cold rainy morning, and started driving around PJ area, trying to find the right address of the stores as the ones I googled. I went around and around with no luck, so I ended up going to Mydin instead.

I found a couple of stuffs, but still couldn't manage to find the most important thing. The boxes to pack my cupcakes! Mind you, those are only available in baking suppliers stores.

So I began my search again, this time in the USJ area.

Finally, a kind, good-looking guy from a bakery pointed me in the right direction and I managed to find the supplier! Hahaha, I am so thankful to that guy, I wanted to hug him. But nahh, can't just go back to the bakery to express my appreciation, can I?

Anyways, as I'm writing this, I've finished baking the first batch of the cupcakes. Waiting for the next four or so batches? I hate waitingggg. T_T I hope they don't taste that bad, and I hope people won't say that it tasted bad, either. Hehe.

After all the baking, and all the accident dramas from this morning's drive, I think I've had enough of my moody, sappy self. Shall get back to cheeky, happy me now!

I love cheeky, happy me. No one can take that from me. No one.

On another matter, although I've tried, and failed. Well, it doesn't matter.  Like I said, at least I've tried. No regrets there. :)

Come on Monday, bring it on!

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Hibernating season

I'm supposed to be studying now. But I'm under the duvet still. Its warm and snuggly and I like it. More because I love sleeping. I wanna sleep all day, all night.

Which got me thinking. Am I depressed right now? I don't know. Maybe I just love sleeping, that's all...

Monday is coming soon. I don't wanna go back to the office. I need my snuggly weekend, I need more sleep. I just need more time on my hands right now.

I wanna be needy, and whiny and clingy right now. This is a very bad day for me. I need a hug.

Goodnight lovesss. I plan on sleeping for a long time tonight.
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Friday, January 11, 2013

How to be a heartbreaker

Rule number one, is that you gotta have fun
But baby when you're done, you gotta be the first to run
Rule number two, just don't get attached to,
Somebody you could lose- Marina and the Diamonds

I wish

I wish there's a device to know if someone likes you or not. I hate uncertainties. But then again, I might as well live by the principles in the movie "He's Just Not That Into You".

Gonna watch it again tonight. Then, hopefully I can get my head back to finally think straight. I need this. Yes, I need this. The cold, hard, truth.

Maybe he's just not that into me, afterall.


Well, Friday is here again. This week, however, my Friday will not be ending early. I have badminton session with my colleagues after work. Yeay to sweating out! Since I haven't been working out lately, I'm sure I'll be sore tomorrow.

Hurm, not welcoming that thought.

Anyways, its Apek's and my brother's birthday tomorrow! I wonder if they'll be celebrating though. Apek's having his exams, and my brother is well, a lil on the far side of KL. 

I'll be out tomorrow, shopping for stuffs to bake. I'm a lil unfamiliar with shops selling baking stuffs here in PJ area, but I can manage baking from scratch, so its fine. Cupcakes it is then! Still haven't decided on the flavor yet, but simple classic vanilla cupcakes will have to do for now. I'm baking it to bring to the office on Monday. :)

One more thing, let's finish up on the scheduled mount of studying this weekend, shall we? Okay, good.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

My fifty shades

Fifty Shades Complicated, that, he is. Hot and cold, yes and no? I'm confused.
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Tuesday, January 08, 2013

So much for a new year resolution

Yeah, giving up on Collin, my ass. When are you gonna stop, Chak? Why does it feel like I'm always under a spell when he's around? Grr. Mad at myself. I should stop right now. At this instant.
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I'm Natalie ;)

Sunday, January 06, 2013

I love Monday

Well, NOT. Monday, why are you here again so soon?? I still haven't started working on things to be submitted tomorrow. Damn all those weekends take back home work! T_T

I guess I'll be sleeping pretty late tonight. Let's just hope that I can somehow wake up and be at work on time tomorrow morning.

 Calm down, don't be stressed.

Aghhhhh! Can't take this shit anymore!

Will be writing more in the office. Night!

Saturday, January 05, 2013

About Collin

Since I'm still here typing in blogger, we can safely conclude that dinner is a wasted cause. Collin is just too cute these days, I have to get it off my chest!

Things I love about Collin:

1) His sexy long fingers. ;)

2) This cute face he makes when he thought no one's looking.

 3) This silly smile he has. I died there and then. 

Now I shall stop here, before it appears that obvious that I'm obsessed with Collin. Its just not the right time for me and Collin now.

Hehehe, I miss his silly grin though.

Staying in

Well, staying in and trying to finish some of my work and revise, its only normal to update my playlist, yet again.

I need to stock up on more headbanging loud songs, just to keep me awake at work. Hehe. :)

On a side note, I really am missing my Billy. He's just so busy prepping for his exams these days, I didn't even get to see him! Our movie plans always got cancelled last minute, but I let him off easy since its his study week. Good luck, bestie. And have fun studying! Haha. I wish we get to talk more often though. Tsk tsk tsk.

Someone needs to knock some sense into me and force me to study more! I did try to revise, but everything becomes so hard after leaving classes for over a month. I need motivation. For now, I need FOOD! Am so hungry!! Better fix myself dinner now, before I end up eating this table.


Friday, January 04, 2013

Yawn Away!

Hi again people! I'm trying desperately to stay awake in the office but it seems like a wasted effort. I AM JUST TOO SLEEPY!! And I blame my disturbed sleep for this. It seems like these two days I kept having nightmares when I sleep, and it doesn't help to wake up at 3 or 4 am because of the nightmares. Its so hard to go back to sleep after that. Which is why I feel very murderous having to wake up so early in the morning to go to work.


I am so gonna sleep in tomorrow. I shall not wake up at least until 1 pm. Heck, I much deserve that amount of sleep after zombie-working these days. :) 

Since the weekends is finally here, I have to get immersed in my long abandoned genetics notes, and finish my scheduled amount of studying for this week. I've been putting off studying since I was always too tired after getting off work, but I can't put it off any longer. I just can't risk it.

Besides the studying, lets face it. I really need my hibernation time, my laze- around time, my personal time. I shall not go out and face the world, until well, Monday.

I guess its just me and my Collin ant then, cuddling all the way till next week!


Tuesday, January 01, 2013

Happy New Year!

So despite being totally sad about leaving 2012, it really wasn't such a big deal afterall. Its merely changing the last number from 2 to 3, repeating the same thing I always do everyday which is what,  falling asleep after watching movies? Yeah, just that.

Well, this year apparently I'm finishing my degree. Plenty will change, I assume. After the first six months, that is. A lot of thinking will be involved right before I finish my final sem in Monash. Heck, I've been thinking a lot lately too. Finishing my studies is like the last thing I wanna do right now. I don't wanna go out to face the cold, hard world. I wanna be in my safe cocoon of a student still. Tsk. Tsk.

Well, lets whine more about all that this year.

For now, I'm gonna just enjoy doing nothing on my New Year holiday before going back to work tomorrow. Hehehe.

Mimo and I made plans to watch Les Miserables tonight. I am super excited to finally watch that movie! The trailer was awesome, and I naturally love musicals, so its a perfect combination!

Can't wait to see these two people.

I am not a big fan of Anne Hathaway, that's why I'm more inclined on watching Amanda Seyfried do her stuff. I'm anticipating Eddie Redmayne performance in this movie too, basically because he's just too cute! You know how I'm weak around cute guys right? ;)

I'll let you know how it goes. TTYS!