Yupp. Just a smile is what it takes to make me happy. Forcing a smile, willing myself to be happy will end up making me feel that I'm really happy. I don't like being unhappy for long, its just not in me to not giggle my stupid giggle everyday.
I can't make people happy if I'm always unhappy. At this point, I started to not give a fuck anymore about whether people care enough about me to not make me feel so left out.
Why wonder about people who might hate me, for all I care? Why make myself unhappy with the thoughts of people not liking me for me?
I should never have to go through that in the first place.
So, I'm plastering this smile across my face, being my usual happy self. Why? Because I deserve to be happy. And I deserve so much better than this.
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