Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Adulthood vs babyhood

I vote for babyhood any time! Being an infant is so much easier compared to the amount of headaches I'm having now as an adult, so to speak. Ahh, all I have to do as a baby will only be: eat and poop. Awesome. I can do that!

Whereas as an adult, I have to worry about bills, car installment, rent, money for parents, money to save, which leaves very little for me to spend. HAHAHAHA.

Okay, that's a total lie. My priorities are not exactly set in that order. The money to save is always optional, giving me more to spend but on junks i dont need! It frustrates me coz I need to get a new handbag, and a new watch and new pairs of shoes but all I keep buying are none of those. Ughh. Oh and I also need to be saving. Which I realize is so much harder to do.

Sobs.

Me and my terrible money-managing skills. T_T Not to mention my poor self-control.

This month is a painful month, and my whiny self can't help but whine and whine and whine about the amount of money I have to dig for traffic summon and car insurance. Raya is approaching too! I iz saddddd. 10 more days before payday. I shall persevere!

I am up too late now. Gotta wake up in 3 hours. Shait. Talk soon loves!

I mean, whine soon.

xx

Monday, July 14, 2014

Throwback to

Before it was me and you. I had to scroll through quite a handful of pictures to get to the point in my life before I met you. That shows two things: one is that some time has passed since then, and another is that I'm one of those girls that take a lot of pictures and pile them all up in her phone.

I keep on thinking of how things are different now with you around. 

How you make me the happiest girl, how you make my silly self feel okay every time, how you make me love you more and more. 

And I wonder if we can survive this. 

I can't remember what life's like before you. I'm not sure whether now is better than back then, or I am happier now or back then. 

But I'm pretty sure that right now, I want you to stay. No matter how difficult things might be, I want you to stay. 

Saturday, July 05, 2014

Ramadhan this year

People! It's been way too long, I feel like I'm getting rusty at writing. Well, it's not like I have nothing to write about anymore, in contrast, I have tons to tell! Like how I went on a trip to Krabi alone, like how I said goodbye to my girls whom wrapped up their studies in Monash and now are safely at home, the list just goes on and on.

But on to what's current..... Ramadhan. It's a lil too fast, no? One year passes by so fast! Last year, at this time, I was dating someone else, feeling miserable with him, but happy that I was home finally after six years of being away in boarding school and college. I had so much time on my hand last year, I could cook and exercise and monitor my lil rascals, I wish I could have more of that this year.

Hurm, Ramadhan in Nilai so far is VERY lonely and tiring. People would normally break fast with their family or group of friends, or with their significant other, and here I am, most of the time alone in my room munching on whatever I have within arm's reach.

VERY unhealthy.

Seven days fasting, today will mark the first day that I set foot at Pasar Ramadhan. If I managed to find one, that is. As I'm typing stuffs here in my room, my mind flies to the pasar, thinking of what to get to break fast already! Though I strongly believe in moderation when going to places like this, I'm kinda scared that I'll turn into a food-hunting monster once I see what they have in store for me. Hehehe. Typical Chak.

What else is different for Ramadhan this year?

Oh yeah, my first time fasting on board. On some days, I kinda like it, coz time passes by so fast when you're busy with work, and before you know it, it's already time to break fast! I don't get tempted much by food that they serve on board, or even when my colleagues eat, but more by drinks! Hahaha, my oh my, when I see iced-drinks, my mouth starts watering. T_T But hey, everything is under control. What is not under control is my stomach's inability to be totally empty during sahur, which is surprising this year, coz I used to be able to not eat in the morning and go on just fine fasting for the rest of the day. Since the nature of my job involves a lot of energy, it should not come as a surprise for me to get sick on board coz of my empty stomach. That, was not fun, trust me.

So, no more going to work fasting without eating for sahur? Yup. Yup. I have learnt my lesson.

That pretty much sums up my Ramadhan, so far.

I shall go get my food-hunting on now, I believe the pasar is open already! Miahaha, food, here I come!

Stay with me?



 
"Why am I so emotional?

No it's not a good look, gain some self control

And deep down I know this never works

But you can lay with me so it doesn't hurt

Oh, won't you stay with me?

'Cause you're all I need

This ain't love it's clear to see

But darling, stay with me"- Sam Smith