Thursday, January 29, 2015

Why I love Tom Odell

"Take my mind and take my pain,
Like an empty bottle takes the rain,
Heal, heal, heal, heal.

Take my past and take my sin,
Like an empty sail takes wind,

Heal, heal, heal, heal.

Tell me some things, lasts.
Tell me some things lasts. "

:) Oh, how soothing.

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Little by little

Scraping at the edges little by little. All I need is time, and a lil patience.

Sunday, January 25, 2015

Sunday Funday

One year passes by so fast, no? My niece is now one year old! With me working ever since she was born, I had very little time to spend with her, but I enjoyed seeing pictures of her sent in the family group chat.

Look at this chubby white baby!

 Ha. That stare.
I kinda hate her new hair, it's too short~ I mean why would you wanna cut her hair? Whyyyy?

I noticed that she kinda lost her baby fats a lot. She's also so much taller now, I wonder if I'd still be able to carry her around.Sighh.

Anyways, I can't wait to see her on February 1st! I hope I'll be able to make it, though. I'm working in the morning, so I'm thinking of going a night if I can. It's been too long since this aunty laid eyes on her, what if she can't recognize me? T_T

Friday, January 23, 2015

What positivity does to you

It builds you. It lifts you up, even on the most messed up day. It helps you wake up in the morning, and it drives you every single day. It makes you look at the world in a different light. It makes you worry less, it drives you to fix things instead of whining about it.

I feel like earlier this month, I was filled with so much negative-ness, it makes me hate the world. With the lost of Oyen to add to that, I resented even having to get up and go to work.

Anyways, what I'm saying is, negativity consumes you. It destroys your relationship with people. It drives them away. You know why? Because negativity spreads.

So why be negative, when it's so much better to have a positive outlook on everything?

Okay, to be honest, on my worst days, I mope around and roll around with negative thoughts it's unhealthy. I want to reduce that now. :)

I think the best way to do that is to start being thankful. One small thought, per day. What are you thankful for? It makes you think about how lucky you are, compared to other people. And that, is not a bad thing.

The next thing is, value your relationships. Value your family, think about how they've helped you through difficult times, and try to make them happy. I believe that if you make people happy, you will somehow find satisfaction in that, and you too, will be happy. Value your friends, as these are the people who somehow knows you best. They listen to you whine, and if you ever need a good laugh, they never fail to entertain. Value your other half, think of how happy they make you feel, and always seek comfort from that feeling. These are the things that will make you think and feel, like you're never alone. You won't feel lonely.

Get things going guys. We are always in the search for happiness, but really, it is all from within. :)

Be kind to others, give help whenever you can, do a good deed once in a while. You will feel happy.

And remember, if all else fails, talk to God. Seek comfort in knowing that he's always there, and things will get better if you work for it.

Spread positivity and love, everyone! It doesn't cost you a thing.


Tuesday, January 20, 2015

And then the month is 10

One year ago, exactly on this day, 20th of January, I was scheduled to fly to Hong Kong and back. I still remember, it was only my first month flying, so everything was exciting for me still. That fateful night, I met this awesome guy whom months after rocked my world.

I am still very much in love with this particular guy, to put it simply, he brings so much joy in my normally idle life. Our journey together wasn't an easy one, we are always tested in ways that sometimes make us want to give up on each other. But, we always persevere in the end. It's a beautiful feeling when you found that someone who is willing to fight for you as much as you're willing to fight for him. I cherish what we have so much now.

Point is, no matter where this thing takes us, no matter where we end up in life years later, looking back, I would be glad of having him in my life right now. I love how we seem to grow together with each passing day, how we learn and discover the world and things about us we never knew existed before. The thing I love most is, how we make each other grow into a better person.

I wish I could just pause the time and stay in this moment forever. But we all know that that is not possible. So, here I am writing this down instead. In hope that one day I will remember and look back to this one moment in my life where I'm the happiest.

Thank you for a wonderful 10 months, baby. Here's to many more happy months to come! :)

Picture is from our Phuket trip earlier this month.

 Ahh, I am so in love with this guy I'm smiling in my sleep. LOL. 

Friday, January 16, 2015

A letter for Oyen

Remember when you were little, Oyen? Mummy Ira almost stepped on you one night near Mc Donalds, and brought you home soon after? Granny was furious in the beginning, we never rear animals at home to begin with, so she didn't know what to do. But then you were so tiny and frail, and you are so adorable she decided to keep you. As for me and your uncles, it took us a while to get used to having you around coz we were never fond of kittens before that.

Slowly, one by one, you charmed us all. You were such an active kitten, you liked to run around the house, you loved sleeping on my bed, you loved napping in front of the sliding door, and you liked to go out every chance you got.

Remember when your Mummy Rina would use to scream your name, and climbed over the neighbor's fence to bring you home? You were in your naughty phase at the time. You would go out to all the neighbors houses and play with other cats. Your Mummy Rina, uncles and Granny would always go out to find you in fear you'll get bullied or hit by passing cars. And you always would come home. You always would.

You were your Mummy Rina's favorite. She practically raised you. She was the one who fed you, bathed you and took you for your shots at the vet. She would always scold you when you went out exploring the neighborhood. She also held your hand, held you, when you were dying in her arms.

Even as I'm typing this down, it doesn't feel real that you're no longer with us Oyen. You left us all so suddenly, it felt like it was only yesterday you were a tiny little kitten seeking shelter. You grew up to be such a beautiful cat, and earned a place in all our hearts. Thank you for bringing so much joy in our little broken family. It's time for you to rest now, my furry friend. We will always remember you as the first cat we brought home, the first cat that opened our hearts to how beautiful the feeling of having a pet is.

I am not ready for goodbye yet, Oyen. But it is something that I must do to go on with living. I'm praying that you're now no longer in pain and is happier wherever you are.

I love you so very very very much, Oyen.