I am hurting. So much that it hurts when I breathe, so much that it's hard for me to eat, so much that my fingers are trembling, and there's very little I can do about it.
I have always believed in karma. Like how it would bite you in the ass one day. I thought of that, this morning. Karma biting me hard in the ass. I remembered a long time ago, I was falling hard for this guy. I only learned later that he is with someone, but that didnt stop me from wanting to be with him. Because I liked him a lot. True, I was quite hurt when he told me he had someone, but I didn't feel like it was wrong for me to see him. Eventually, he broke up with that someone, and we started our relationship.
Today, I think back to that time.
Isn't it sad, when you thought you knew someone, and they turn out to be such a huge disappointment? And me, being the typical me, would always take the pain quietly and go away.
I am glad I found out sooner. Because I'm such a delusional person, sometimes I fail to see what's in front of me. I always choose to see only the good in people. Which is always the case with all of my exes. The one that cheats, the one that is not into me, basically everyone is always forgiven, and regardless of how they treated me, I'll always say that they're a good person.
Which leads me to think that I might actually be blind. Thing is, men are all the same. I know making a generalization is harsh, but every bit of it is true.
As true as the fact that I'm leaving for Dubai tomorow. God grant me strength to go through this challenging times.
I need time for this. I guess I'm the one who loved more.